By Elson Trinidad
How do you keep a heart from breaking? I'd sure like to know. On Thursday evening, I got rejected.
Sure, everyone gets rejected from time to time. But to have my heart broken, for the fourth time in a row, was too much for me to take.
Especially when she has been on my mind for four months. Four months of daydreaming, four months of trying to get to know this person, four months of relative bliss, Until...
I asked her out. It was to some stupid formal that everyone in this particular campus organization I belonged to was pressured to go. I asked her if she would go with me, and she basically said she was planning on going with someone she was already seeing.
That moment, the fault line in my heart set off a massive tremor. Forget Northridge. No Richter scale could measure this one.
I walked away and stared into blank space. "Let it settle in," I told myself.
It settled in, all right. Slowly and painfully.
Damn, it hurt.
A few friends went up to me and asked me what was wrong. Some cared enough to want to know. I told them. A couple of them told me that they already knew that she was seeing someone.
Ouch. The aftershock.
A broken heart is not unlike an earthquake, or any other disaster. Along with the devastation, there are also "emergency procedures." And since I've gone through this so many times, I was prepared.
When one's heart is broken, one goes through a paradigm shift of sorts. suddenly, you can't do things you're used to doing. So, from now on, I have to:
And she seemed to be so right for me. But I don't care anymore.
Hey, I got the hang of it already.
Realistically, things will get better in the future. But with failure, the pessimism grows. Take it from me, the Buffalo Bills of romance.
So how do you keep a heart from breaking?
I guess, like an earthquake, there's nothing you can do really, but just let it happen, assess the damage and hopefully, time will diminish the pain.
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